I’ve been writing up a storm all week. I have so many stories in progress right now that I’ll never lack for something to write until they’re finished. I got over the whole “I never finish anything!” “Can’t I just finish something?!” feelings because they weren’t helping me. They were making me neglect new ideas because I had myself convinced that it would be better to finish the current work in progress first.
When I do finish short stories (even if they took a year or more to write and might need some updating during edit) it feels like I’m saying goodbye to something (or someone) running around my head because some weeks I may only add a sentence or two to one of them, or a scene that comes much later from the point where I’m writing from. Sometimes, all I see is the ending of something and then I have to go back and figure out where it all started. That’s writing though. My process has changed over the years and I just accept it and roll with it now. I’m no longer in a position to spend 8 hours in front of my keyboard like I did in the “good ole days”. Instead of being upset about it, I do what I can.
I love Twitter poetry so much. On days when I can focus on nothing else, I go to it and ideas actually stem from them for longer poems or flash fiction pieces. This past week I also worked on three longer poems for my “To Edit” pile and worked a little on my Ojibwe language studies. I also read “Before I Fall” by Lauren Oliver and wow it inspired me so much. I found myself overthinking the book probably. (That’s what I do. 🙂 ) But, isn’t that what makes a good book? When you can’t get it out of your head? I’m much more excited to see the movie when it comes out next month. (And also hoping they don’t screw it up as most fans of books that become movies do. lol)
I’ve been thinking about my Grandma a lot this past week as well. Today is her birthday and I usually try to celebrate by having a hot pretzel and a slurpee. It’s something we used to do together quite often. Many a Kmart Cafe has been frequented by my Grandmother and I. Memories of her are some of the best of my life. She passed away when I was 16 years old but this year it feels like it just happened yesterday. I miss her so much. I’m not quite sure why all of a sudden she’s on my mind again so heavily, but maybe it’s because I feel lost about a lot of things. I wonder how she’d feel about the state of our world today. I wonder how my Grandma would feel about the internet mostly. haha It’s not that it didn’t exist when she was alive, I just know my grandparents didn’t have a computer. (At least not one with internet capabilities anyway. I do recall playing Dig Dug on some contraption called a computer that took up so much space and according to my memory doesn’t even come close to what we call a computer today.)
I wonder what she and my grandpa (who did know about the internet and even got into some “old man trouble” on the internet at one point) would say about everyone being glued to their devices all the time. Wisdom of elders is something I’ll always be tuned into. Sure, not every elderly person is going to have sage advice for you. You’re not going to agree with everyone on everything. But still, lifetimes full of experiences and witnesses to history that happened before I was born will forever be an interest of mine. I like to listen to people. I like to know who they are and where they came from. And sometimes I think older people are the best to talk to. They typically don’t have a smart phone out distracting them. 😉
I’m catching up on chores today, starting a new book to read & jotting down the little verses that hit me throughout the day. I’m hoping for a good, productive week. It’s all I can hope for when I feel like garbage most days. That’s something I think I’m slowly letting go of too. There may not be any “I feel like I’m not even sick” days anymore. (I had 6 last year. This year so far: 0) It doesn’t mean I don’t look forward to one of it comes, but I’m not going to sit and wait for them anymore. I’m having much more fun working around them.
Have a great week everyone! This “little update” turned into being a little long-winded, eh? 😀